24lbs down :)

Oh am I so happy to be home :)) I missed my husband oh so much!! I was very proud of myself that I kept up with my goals and I didn't gain weight, I lost 4lbs :)) so now I have reached my first goal!! Now on to my next, 18lbs to go. And tomorrow starts a hard core routine so I am excited to see my results!!! On another note the girls and I had so much fun on our trip, very exhausting but fun, we got to visit with lots of family, and go to Disneyland! Both girls enjoyed it and I got to get on some rides. In the two weeks, the girls changed so much! Jennika repeats everything, and has grown into this little girl, Ruth is all over the place, and blabbering non stop. It's crazy how time flies. And in such a short time they can grow so fast!!! But back to reality! And I need a life, so I am going to work on getting out more and hopefully meeting friends that can become life long friends, I am so tired of not having a social life let alone not having a life outside of my family. So let's hope I can work on that. But until then all focus is on reaching my goals and being the best wife n mom I can be!!!

Visiting family!

Wow have I had a packed week. The girls and I left NC for Oregon last Tuesday and spent 2 days in Washington. Got to see my bestie and my nieces n nephews! It was so awesome to see them all and I'm happy it worked out and their moms worked with me :) then came down to Albany and have been visiting with family. I have been keeping to my goal and have not had any fast food. Been keeping myself under my calorie goal and eating the right portions. I have not worked out every day but we have also haven't been in one spot long enough for me to relax and workout. Which is no excuse but I am excited to get to Cali with my mom so we can workout together! I have been doing a few workouts here and there just randomly when I'm bored. I know I will prob not be at the same weight I was when I left but I also haven't been able to weigh myself. However today I had to buy new pants since mine were getting too loose and I have dropped 2 jean sizes!!! I am 2 sizes away from my first goal and 4 away from my ultimate goal!!!! :) and when I get home I will be hitting the working out hard. I have a plan that I'll be doing the 30 day shred along with slim in 6 plus a run and I feel that will get me to a good rhythm and I will be able to keep with it :) I am still happy with myself and do glad I am out of my old pants!!! And all I want is to continue to lose and of these pants seem to be tight one day I will be working my butt off that day! I will not go back to my old pants!!! I refuse!!! I'm posting my progress pics and my pic in my new smaller pants :)))

All ready for the west coast.

Tomorrow morning the girls and I head to Oregon then driving up to fort Lewis, then to sequim, back to Lewis and the next day back down to Oregon. For 5 days then off to Cali! Oh man it's going to be a busy busy week then a somewhat relaxing week. I am excited to see my nieces and nephews, and the Justus family. Then to see the in laws and more family. But I have to say I am super excited to have some in n out and take the girls to Disney land!!!! Wishing my hubs was coming with me but he can't :( I am also super excite to see everyone (as of right now) nearly 20lbs lighter!!!!! John and I are on our second day of detox and from yesterday I have lost 4.5lbs!!! And John lost 2.5!!! I am becoming so happy with myself. I am proud. But I have a huge challenge in front of me. 2 weeks of not being home. And I have to make sure I continue to workout and eat right. I refuse to eat fast food. I will eat subway if I need to! But I prefer to eat better. So wish me luck!!! My plan is to get some groceries when I get out there so I'll be good :) but I'm stressing out. This is my first flight that I will be completely alone from start to finish. Both times. Since I'm renting a car. So I have to figure out how to manage 2 car seats, a pack n play, a suitcase and a double stroller! AHHHHH. I know I can handle it. It's just overwhelming thinking about it! Well now I'm off to clean finish up last min things and workout!

Lost.

I'm finding that I am getting back into the place where I don't want to be. Going from lots of great friends that enjoy talking to me as much as I enjoy talking to them to one or two people that I talk to maybe on a weekly basis. Starting to feel like I am just not good enough to continue being friends with or I am just easy to forget. I like to think that it's not true but sadly the more days past the more I realize I am not a person people enjoy being friends with for life and I feel I am the only one who keeps trying so I am done. I officially am tired of trying to involve myself and feeling like I bug people so I'm just going to keep to myself. Getting off Facebook and not dealing with trying to make everyone see that I'm still alive. But instead I'm just going to focus on my girls and my husband. Not going to put myself out there anymore and I'm not going to be sharing my business with anyone. If people want to know how I'm doing then they can call me. I'm tired of everything really. But onto a better note I am succeeding in my weigh loss journey more than I expected. Things are going great and I am becoming comfortable with myself. Can't wait to see my progress at the end of the month.