Busy summer.

It's been a busy summer but I have maintained my goals and enjoyed a vacation to see family. The girls are growing too fast and we have managed a trip to SC, a birthday party, a trip to Oregon, Josiah moving back here with us, and a move into a new house! Crazy what life throws at you and I think I have handled myself well with everything going on. I am kept up with working out and all of August I have been working on my abs. Looking forward to a few detox days and I am posting a picture updating my old one. :)

Still going strong!

Well i know its been awhile since my last entry, my life has been a little crazy! but I'm still going strong, working out every day and I've been able to run too!!! which is HUGE for me since I've NEVER been a runner! I started out Running .73 miles (its just around my block)
Day 1- 10:15
Day 2- 9:23
Day 3- 8:32
Day 4- 8:15
Day 5- 8:18
Day 6- 7:47
Day 7- 7:32

YAY! I am so proud of myself! My last run puts me at just under an 11min mile!!!! Ive also been going to the gym and enjoying myself! Today i started a routine, going to do the bike or elliptical and then work my lower body for one week, they switch to my upper body! so that way i can focus on one area and hopefully start seeing results! I have some pictures I'm going to share and holy cow are some of them INSANE! but i have found some photos of the older me and how i was before i even had kids!

On a non fitness side i started doing freezer meals, i spent $450 on over 90 meals! I'm very happy with the meals we have been eating them for over a week now, and so happy that i don't have to prepare dinner ever night. we have a whole freezer full of over 60 dinners 30 breakfasts and lunch stuff!

The kids are doing wonderful!!! Jennika is gaining a southern accent, and Ruth is almost 1!!!! holy cow has time flown!

But overall everything has been wonderful! Ive deactivated my FB for awhile, not that anyone really notices, but i think I've just become addicted and i need to focus more on my home and my family. so I'm hoping to go awhile without my Facebook even though i will not have much of a social life since everyone only likes to communicate thru FB. but i know the people that really want to talk to me have my number! So here are some pictures of me and my update on my body change! These last few weeks i haven't seem much LBS changing but i took a picture and I've seen the inches disappear! :) Don't judge me! :)

Left: Sometime in 07/early 08 Right: Now

L:April 08 R: May 2012

June 2012

L: Mid May 2012 R: June 2012

L: Jan 2012 R: June 2012

All my jean sizes! What I started at to what I am now! :)

Thanks for reading!!! My Mini Goal is only a few weeks away!

30lbs down!!! Heck yea!!

Well I have made another milestone! 30lbs!!!!!!!!! Omg. If you would have asked me 4 months ago if I would be 30lbs lighter id of told you heck no! But I am SO thrilled. I even told myself at 30lbs lost I will get to a gym. And I have found the perfect one! :) I started today and it was awesome! I'm going to add some swimming in and elliptical. I think swimming will help so so much with my sore muscles and burn some fat at the same time :) the girls love the child care there and I am strangely comfortable with it. So I am going to post another picture. My first picture and my picture today :) I have 47lbs to go. But would be happy to just lose 15% body fat.

Insanity....

Well i have completed day 3! yay me! It is easier than i expected i think because everyone was telling me that it was so extreme and such but i think doing Slim in Six helped me a lot! I am glad that he says to go at your own pace because i do and i know i will get better with time. :)  i was so sore today after last nights workout i could hardly move this morning. I am really enjoying working out in a routine again. March was a crappy month for working out and i slacked way too much. so now i am back at it and watching what i eat charting everything and working out for at least 20 mins a day. sometimes (like today) 70+ mins :) it is becoming routine again and just automatic which is really nice. Tonight i was so exhausted but i pushed myself to do the workout, John is super tired too and he even said no lets have today be a rest day and i said HELL no! sunday is a rest day and we need to keep doing what we are doing. So tonight we are taking a before picture and i can't wait to see HUGE results cause i know for a fact in like a week i will see something! i officially have 60 days left! the count down is on!

i honestly have to say i LOVE working out. I never thought i would and i wish i would have kept up with fitness in high school. i will deff be telling my girls to do their best and be fit 24/7 which should be easy since i plan to keep working out for the rest of my life and i will always involve my children and since jennika already likes working out with me i will just keep doing what i do! I expect me to do better next week in these workouts since i have already done them. and i can't wait for my next fit test to see how much better i have become. i really love this program cause he really gets involved with you and talks to you during the workouts and pushes you do to your best and thats what i like to hear. tomorrow i am going to finish up my slim in six and enjoy working out :)

Eeek it's been a month??

Well this month has been a slacker month. And I refuse to let another month go by. So I ordered insanity, John and I will be doing the 60 day challenge together. Which will help me a lot since I KNOW it's going to be a huge struggle for the first 2wks or even the whole 60 days! But I have been stuck at 25lbs down and I need to get back into a strong routine. So I have picked a few things I am going to do on a weekly basis and see how I do. Can get in great shape if I don't push myself to do more. :) so here is what I am hoping to accomplish every week.
(I am mainly writing this down so I can remember. Haha)

Sunday- rest day from insanity, 4-8 mile bike ride.
Monday- AM slim in six, afternoon run which will be C25K, 2-3 mile bike rode before dinner and insanity at night
Tuesday- AM slim in six, 3-4 mile walk, 2-3 mile bike ride, insanity.
Wednesday- AM slim in six, C25K, 2-3m bike, insanity
Thursday- AM slim in six, 3-4m walk, 2-3m bike ride, insanity
Friday- AM slim in six, C25K, 2-3m bike, insanity
Saturday- AM slim in six, 2-3m bike ride.

WOW writing that out looks insane!!!!! But I am going to do my best. The main thin is insanity and C25K. Plus 2 workouts a day I do with my hubs :) and I KNOW my results will be amazing! So that's all that matters. I gotta work hard to get the results I want and eating right plus an insane workout routine will sure get me to where I want to be :) plus a way healthier me! So I'm hoping to be blogging more to share my journey, and to keep myself motivated. I worked out a lot more when I blogged so I have to get back into it. Plus it's getting so nice out and I'm going to be doing things outside with my girls more :).

So here's to april! And to getting my body back! Oh and I will be posting photo updates. Prob of me and John. And possibly weekly.

Wish me luck!

24lbs down :)

Oh am I so happy to be home :)) I missed my husband oh so much!! I was very proud of myself that I kept up with my goals and I didn't gain weight, I lost 4lbs :)) so now I have reached my first goal!! Now on to my next, 18lbs to go. And tomorrow starts a hard core routine so I am excited to see my results!!! On another note the girls and I had so much fun on our trip, very exhausting but fun, we got to visit with lots of family, and go to Disneyland! Both girls enjoyed it and I got to get on some rides. In the two weeks, the girls changed so much! Jennika repeats everything, and has grown into this little girl, Ruth is all over the place, and blabbering non stop. It's crazy how time flies. And in such a short time they can grow so fast!!! But back to reality! And I need a life, so I am going to work on getting out more and hopefully meeting friends that can become life long friends, I am so tired of not having a social life let alone not having a life outside of my family. So let's hope I can work on that. But until then all focus is on reaching my goals and being the best wife n mom I can be!!!

Visiting family!

Wow have I had a packed week. The girls and I left NC for Oregon last Tuesday and spent 2 days in Washington. Got to see my bestie and my nieces n nephews! It was so awesome to see them all and I'm happy it worked out and their moms worked with me :) then came down to Albany and have been visiting with family. I have been keeping to my goal and have not had any fast food. Been keeping myself under my calorie goal and eating the right portions. I have not worked out every day but we have also haven't been in one spot long enough for me to relax and workout. Which is no excuse but I am excited to get to Cali with my mom so we can workout together! I have been doing a few workouts here and there just randomly when I'm bored. I know I will prob not be at the same weight I was when I left but I also haven't been able to weigh myself. However today I had to buy new pants since mine were getting too loose and I have dropped 2 jean sizes!!! I am 2 sizes away from my first goal and 4 away from my ultimate goal!!!! :) and when I get home I will be hitting the working out hard. I have a plan that I'll be doing the 30 day shred along with slim in 6 plus a run and I feel that will get me to a good rhythm and I will be able to keep with it :) I am still happy with myself and do glad I am out of my old pants!!! And all I want is to continue to lose and of these pants seem to be tight one day I will be working my butt off that day! I will not go back to my old pants!!! I refuse!!! I'm posting my progress pics and my pic in my new smaller pants :)))

All ready for the west coast.

Tomorrow morning the girls and I head to Oregon then driving up to fort Lewis, then to sequim, back to Lewis and the next day back down to Oregon. For 5 days then off to Cali! Oh man it's going to be a busy busy week then a somewhat relaxing week. I am excited to see my nieces and nephews, and the Justus family. Then to see the in laws and more family. But I have to say I am super excited to have some in n out and take the girls to Disney land!!!! Wishing my hubs was coming with me but he can't :( I am also super excite to see everyone (as of right now) nearly 20lbs lighter!!!!! John and I are on our second day of detox and from yesterday I have lost 4.5lbs!!! And John lost 2.5!!! I am becoming so happy with myself. I am proud. But I have a huge challenge in front of me. 2 weeks of not being home. And I have to make sure I continue to workout and eat right. I refuse to eat fast food. I will eat subway if I need to! But I prefer to eat better. So wish me luck!!! My plan is to get some groceries when I get out there so I'll be good :) but I'm stressing out. This is my first flight that I will be completely alone from start to finish. Both times. Since I'm renting a car. So I have to figure out how to manage 2 car seats, a pack n play, a suitcase and a double stroller! AHHHHH. I know I can handle it. It's just overwhelming thinking about it! Well now I'm off to clean finish up last min things and workout!

Lost.

I'm finding that I am getting back into the place where I don't want to be. Going from lots of great friends that enjoy talking to me as much as I enjoy talking to them to one or two people that I talk to maybe on a weekly basis. Starting to feel like I am just not good enough to continue being friends with or I am just easy to forget. I like to think that it's not true but sadly the more days past the more I realize I am not a person people enjoy being friends with for life and I feel I am the only one who keeps trying so I am done. I officially am tired of trying to involve myself and feeling like I bug people so I'm just going to keep to myself. Getting off Facebook and not dealing with trying to make everyone see that I'm still alive. But instead I'm just going to focus on my girls and my husband. Not going to put myself out there anymore and I'm not going to be sharing my business with anyone. If people want to know how I'm doing then they can call me. I'm tired of everything really. But onto a better note I am succeeding in my weigh loss journey more than I expected. Things are going great and I am becoming comfortable with myself. Can't wait to see my progress at the end of the month.

Is it a trend?

In the nearly 3 years John and i have been married, we have been through a lot, i have been there for friends that have gone through a lot, i have been there for family, i feel like i have been helpful in whenever someone needs me to. I'm wondering now why i even try. so i guess i need to just be a hermit and not be there for anyone that isn't there for me, and just be there for my family.

Last night we got a phone call from my mother in law letting us know that John's Aunt Jerry (whom played a huge roll in his life) had passed away. While i was talking to Jacque (my mom in law) she had asked me to tell John, and i couldn't, i couldn't tell him again that someone close to him had passed away. because every time someone has passed away, Aunt Jerry is the 3rd person close to him that has passed in less than 3 years) my heart breaks, and i really have no one to turn to, to talk to other than my husband and family, and they are feeling the same pain that i am feeling but multiplied! In Feb 09 John was in training at NTC in California, and i had to inform him that his grandfather had passed away, in Oct 10 John's brother Joe was KIA in Afghanistan and i had to tell him that his brother wasn't going to come home, which was by far the worst feeling in the world to have to tell your husband, and last night i just couldn't tell him, i am normally a very strong person when it comes to dealing with loss and i am normally one to be ok with telling the news. I am torn up for my family, and my husband. His grandpa i didn't know very well, met only a few times since John and I had only been dating a few months, his brother i had gotten to know and talked to him like he was my own brother and he loved Jennika, and Joe was by far the hardest person to lose in the family, its been over a year and we are all still feeling pain, and Getting the news of Aunt Jerry is another wonderful person this family is going to take awhile to accept.

I am praying that this is not a new thing with our family. seems like every year n a half or so we lose something that is near and dear to our hearts. And i am praying for Uncle Harlan and him losing the love of his life. Now i have to wait for when to book our tickets to oregon and pray that John is able to come...then worry about our dogs.

Posting my success.

I first thought that posting pictures of my success would just embarrass me and I'm too shy to show how I let myself get out of control. But then since seeing my body changing for the better I have decided that maybe a picture a month wouldn't be so bad :) after all I am the one that is changing me and I should be proud of what I am doing and not dwell on the past. After all I can't change the past but I am changing my future :) I have seen more results in my body changing than in my scale. Which is perfectly fine with me since changing my body is more important that what weight is on the scale. :) so at the end of this you will see a picture of my before and a picture of me today. If you can't not be judgmental and rude then keep your comments to yourself. And I'm proud of myself and I hope you can be proud of me too.

Onto family, jennika is seeming to be back on track with her potty issue, and I am so relieved. My friend Jessica gave me this wonderful idea of freezing go gurt, and giving it to her as a treat which worked wonderful this morning. And she has even been dry all day! :)) Ruth is crawling all over, and playing with all the toys. Jennika and Ruth are now playing together, and looking back at our play area to see Ruth all over the place, is awesome. What's even better is seeing her playing with Jennika. Jennika loves her sister, and is enjoying sharing her toys with Ruth. I am just going to enjoy life, and not worry so much about the small stuff. I know my husband will do his very best to take care of us and that's a wonderful feeling.

2 weeks down!

Well I am finished 2weeks of my workouts! :) I did the first set in slim and six and I'm doing much better in the treadmill intervals. :) I have lost 10lbs and 11.5 inches. I feel wonderful!!! I started the second set in slim in six today and it is going to be awesome! It is 20mins longer than the first set and it is way faster. But I am enjoying it! I changed my routine a little and decided slim in six and treadmill need to be in the morning and not at night since I am exhausted by days end. So now tonight I will jump on the treadmill for a half hour and be done. Plus I prefer doing a walk at night than both it gives me too much energy before bed. And now I can workout clean the house shower an head to bed! All by about 915ish. :) I have stayed on track with my healthy eating and even went out to dinner twice this weekend and still ordered something within my calorie range! I have been looking at my pictures that I took before I started working out and pictures I took now and WOW! I totally see a huge difference in just 2wks!!!! It's amazing and I am so happy! Like I have said before I'm not too worried about the numbers on the scale but more focused on eating right and working out. Which I have done so far!

On another note Ruth crawled for the first time last night. Only a little but hey it's a start! And she is all over this morning crawling a few inches then spinning and repeat lol. Jennika is talking way more and I love it! She has conversations with her dolls haha. John is at selection this week and I keep praying everything is going great for him, this is a make or break career thing for him and I'm always praying for the best. Civil affairs is something he wants so bad and it's something that interests him in the army and even though it will be hard on our family I will support him anyway I can so that he meets his goals. Which is what he has done for me!

This is the longest I have kept up with working out and knowing me a year ago I would have never done this. So it is a huge accomplishment for me to be working out 14 days in a row! And not having fast food, soda, or any easy boxed food is so amazing to me! Granted I would like some on some days but I fight my urges and tell myself I didn't lose 10lbs just to gain it back! I am looking forward to what next week holds for me in my weight loss. Hopefully another 3lbs at least. This last week I lost 5lbs! My first goal was 10lbs a month. And I have met that goal in 2wks. I know every month won't be like this but 10lbs will be my main goal :)

I hope you are sticking to your new year resolution. :)

Feeling lighter!

I am so enjoying this year so far! I feel wonderful! I have kept with my workout and healthy eating, I did have a reward day yesterday we had desert at coldstone but I ate healthy all day aside from my desert :) I woke up this morning feeling guilty since I was organizing my craft stuff all night and didn't workout. But today I am working in another workout and more of a weigh training workout which will be nice! I have never felt this good and I have never felt like just working out without dreading it. I have been enjoying it and not even thinking twice about working out :) I am so proud of myself, and am so looking forward to what is to come. I have one week down and five weeks to go, 3.5 lbs down :) so many more to go but that's not my real focus. My focus is eating healthy and exercising. :)

GO ME!

Loving The New Me!

Wow, I don't think I have ever been this energized or this excited about working out in my life! I feel like a whole new person and I just wish I could have done it sooner, but I am so happy I didn't wait any longer! I know have a nice routine going, and working out isn't a chore, I don't have to peel myself off the couch and force myself to work out! And I have been eating healthy and not worrying about what the scale says since I am only weighing myself once a week. And if I drop even one lb I will be so happy! I am more focused on just making sure I keep doing the workouts I enjoy! I am so glad I decided to do the slim in six and start out with it since it is somewhat of a beginners work out but still kicks my butt! Well it is by beach body so I know it's good :) after my 6wks I will start the 30 day shred, and after that I think turbo fire or P90X. But I will get to that point when I get there. I found out today my iFit has 25 workouts and I am on 4. I do the same one twice, so i won't have to search for the second one until later. :) anyways I am so very proud of myself, and I know that I will achieve my goals!!! :)

Are you sticking to your new years resolution?!?

Disconnecting

There is so much going on in my life, i am battling my own struggles mentally and physically, Jennika is have some issues not physical or mental but just issues that we have been battling since we got to NC, John has some things he needs to focus on or the outcome if he doesn't succeed will be horrible. So i am kind of feeling like i need to disconnect and focus on my life in full swing instead of having distractions. Plus my phone is only a distraction when it does go off which now a days is only my mom, johns mom, or john. So really that shouldn't be an issue much. I am decided that my phone will only be on if i am leaving my house, yet will be in my purse just in case i need it, i am going to go out and get a house phone tomorrow to set up the security in my house and if someone needs to reach me they can, if they want the number. i am deff having more struggles than any recently prob cause i kinda feel left in the dark, but thats really nothing new to me since it tends to happen a lot in my life. but life goes on and its time for me to just stop and focus on things that i need to do and get done. :)

Today started off to be a great day, girls had their check ups and both of them are very healthy and advanced. Dr told me that i am on top of things since Jennika is potty trained and the average now a days of kids to be potty trained is 3-3 1/2. then the girls got their shots, jennika did great she only whined while the lady was touching her and then she was fine and ruth cried until i picked her up which is what Jennika used to do haha. Then we came home relaxed had lunch and i got a text from my husband stating some not so great news. so now i am stressing out because if John doesn't pass this course he is going to on the 15th then we could be homeless and jobless and after a big move and then another move across country things would not be looking good. SO needless to say i will be stressed and worried about everything and thinking worse case for everything the whole month cause we won't find out until the 20th. and on top of that i will not be going to Cali to see my family which is a huge bummer for me since my grandpa just underwent heart surgery, and i was looking forward to introducing Ruth to friends and family. but that will have to wait which i guess is a good thing since saving money is the best idea right now. Then we found out that we won't even be getting the money we spent moving here until late jan since its so close to the end of the year and W-2s are needing to be processed and they won't even start it until those are all handed out which is the 23rd. :( so needless to say i am stressed to the max. and i think this is the only thing i vent to now a days since i don't really want to bother other people with my problems anymore cause i feel like I'm an annoyance at times. so my day went from awesome to horribly stressful all at the same time. on top of that i am still feeling like family issues will NEVER be resolved and things will never change which really pisses me off! but i am trying very very hard to not get bothered by the family issues that seem will never change.

to end my night i did a work out on the treadmill and now I'm going to head to bed, 9:15 and its calling my name. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and i will get the rest of the things done that i need to get done. So if you are trying to get ahold of me leave a voicemail or email me. phone will be shut of the majority of the day and if its turned on i will most likely not be answering it. i guess i am turning into a hermit.