September = No facebook checking :)

Hello end of summer!!!!! WOW i am so glad to be home!!! vacation for 9wks will NEVER happen again unless we are in one spot for that whole 9wks! we have finally gotten on a good schedule after being home and after family has left. i really dont recommend to anyone to do a 51hr road trip with 3 kids 3 and under...deff a challenge.

 Today I started doing a homeschool program with the girls, and Joseph turned 4 months old yesterday!!! Time sure has flown by! I have restarted all my workout routines, and gotten the kids on a good routine. We hit the gym every morning around 9am and then come home to work on numbers letters and colors with the girls. 

I am working hard on getting my pre joseph body,that i worked so hard at getting last year, back again before John comes home. I know i can do it but its always just a struggle to get started. So I get an hour a day to myself at the gym, going to start doing Aqua zumba and maybe even some Yoga. 

I have also decided that I will not be checking my facebook for the whole month of september...this means not even logging onto Facebook, I have taken the apps off my phone, I post pictures for John and family to see thru instagram, and thats it. So if you are reading this and would like to know how i am doing or would like me to know information call or text me! I am hoping by this i will be able to "catch up" with everyone on Facebook once a week in oct. but honestly i think facebook just takes too much of my time away from my kiddos and i will always update photos but thats about it. I am however still on facebook chat since thats the only way i can talk to John. so theres a way to communicate with me also.

Well thats all for now. Thanks for reading.

Joseph Harlan has arrived!!

May 2nd 9:07am Joseph Harlan came screaming and suckling into this world! At 7lbs 6oz 19.5in long he is so beyond perfect! So here is how we got an early arrival from my little man!

Wednesday May 1st I had my last drs appt, get paper work done and make sure everything was scheduled for our original scheduled delivery for Friday May 3rd. So Tuesday I was having sharp stabbing knife pains in my lady parts, painful to the point that I would buckle at the knees! So I rested as much as a preparing mother could and waited to talk to my dr in the morning. When I got to the drs office I was still having those wonderful pains and so they put me on the monitors to check me out and make sure Joseph was fine.

After 30mins on the monitors my dr came in and said I am in early labor....SAY WHAT?!?! I don't do labor. My body has never responded to labor. Dr you are wrong haha no way I am in labor. ;) 3rd times a charm cause my contractions (those pains) were 10-15mins apart. So nothing major and nothing to be alarmed by and rush me to the OR. No cervix change (no surprise there) so dr sent me home after telling me he didn't want to wait two days til my repeat c section and he moved me up a day and to be at the hospital at 7:30am! Oh crap! So I went home. Continued to labor but it did start to taper off if I was laying down relaxing.

Thursday morning came into the hospital at 7:30, c section is scheduled at 9:30, got all suited up, lady that put my IV in missed and instead of taking it out and trying again they fished around in there which caused me to pass out and become hot and sweaty light headed and my hearing was off. Double vision. All the fun stuff, nurse said I passed out for about a min. And lost my tongue ring since I took it out before they started the IV but didn't have the ball attached. :/ oh well. They were all ready to go by 8:20 for surgery, and I wasn't. Since they told me surgery would be at 9:30 my mom dropped the girls off at 8:20 with my friend and was on her way, she got there by 8:45. This is where everything picks up speed! We were in the OR starting surgery at 9:05, Joseph came out a short 2mins later! And I was closed up and done at 9:20!!!!! 15mins!!!!! My mom got to hold Joseph next to me while they closed me back up and boy does he look like his sisters! They took Joseph to the nursery and me to recovery then at around 11:30 I finally got to hold and feed him! He latched on great! Has been nursing like a pro. I got some tips from the LC to make sure we keep our latch good and so Joseph doesn't get lazy. My milk came in 24hrs. At 24hrs old Joseph had only lost 6oz. And all day yesterday he kept at his 7lb weight and didn't lose any more :)) it's 9:20am and Joseph is 2 days old, and still perfect!!! We slept great last night, and we will hopefully be leaving in the next 2hrs. Whenever my dr is available to come discharge me. :)

Hard to believe....

Welp, we are reaching our last few weeks as a family, thankfully i got good news tonight that dates have been pushed back some so we get some more time! SOO what have we been doing.....NOTHING BUT FAMILY TIME!!!!! :)) Spent our 4-day weekend watching movies and playing with the girls!

Started fully potty training Ruth, its official NO MORE DIAPERS in this house!!!! she has done great for being 18m and on her second day. I have learned that she has AMAZING bladder control. stays dry for 2-4hrs! She stayed dry her first night which was awesome, and she has only had 3 accidents today compared to the 6 yesterday. Ive noticed she does better when she is without undies on, she will stop herself from peeing, she caught herself in a dribble today and stopped walked to her potty and finished (Awesome right?!?!)!!! So thats what I've been doing yesterday and today, hoping by this time next week she is at least telling me every time before and/or going on her own!

I have also realized that it is MUCH harder to potty train with treats and rewards with a child that is already potty trained, cause then they think that they deserve them too, so we've had to explain to Jennika that its Ruth's turn to learn how to be a big girl and this is what we did with you so now we are doing it with Ruth. So i compromised and said if she stays dry all day (which she does no problem by now) she can have an M&M before bath time....so far its helped thankfully!

We have my mother in law and John's best friend coming out from Oregon on Monday, to spend a week here with us, so this weekend is getting the spare room back together and a bed in there. Glad John will get some time with his mom before he heads out.

Last week we got rid of dressers, we had a scare with Jennika the dressers were in their closet facing each other and Jennika pulled on her dresser and it fell over, thankfully Ruth's dresser was right across and it caught the dresser instead of it landing on Jennika. So i bought some closet organizer starter kit from Amazon and set it all up, girls now have everything hung up which is nicer for my OCD self since everything is in its place and neat! no more digging into dresser drawers for one shirt and ruining my folding and organizing haha.

Jennika has also been working on her letters and name. She did an amazing job for her first time!!

Thats about it thats new with us Rodewald's hard to believe January is already almost over!

New year new goals

Haven't blogged in a while a lot has changed! Sept we found out we are expecting baby number 3! Final one :) and it's a boy! Yay! Joseph Harlan Rodewald will be gracing us with his presence first week of may :) the girls and I went to visit with some awesome family at Disney world end of oct and early nov! The girls had so much fun Jennika really loved meeting the princesses and characters :) Jennika has been going to preschool since sept and she loves it! We continue to do dance class and looking to get Ruth into a dance class or something soon.

We found out early dec that John will be deploying again sometime in Feb. which was a shock to us since a few days before he was for sure not going. But nothing is ever for sure with the army! So his deployment will be 9m as far as we know and he will come home to meet his son when Joseph is 6-7m old. :(

We spent a week before Christmas cleaning and organizing every since inch of our house (which isn't a lot)! Trying to get everything organized before deployment well before the new year so we can spend as much time as a family as possible. Still have a few things to do but that's only because I don't like the set up in the girls' room and I'm picky. So today I worked on the girls' dress up stuff!

We don't have much storage in this house but since we cleaned organized and got rid of a bunch if extra stuff we were using out under the stairs storage for baby toys and baby things. Well we have a bedroom for that and the bedroom won't be used until next year so I changed it to a dressing room for the girls! Which cleaned up their room a lot! So I will be in there tonight to organize again and hope I can get it to something I like!

So now I have this brand new bookcase I originally bought to make a dress up closet thingy and I don't know what I'm going to do with it yet....but I have an idea so we will see.


I will be blogging more since I am trying to cut my time spent on Facebook, but still want to include family on what we are doing and how the girls are doing. Plus when John leaves I want him to be able to see everything we do like he is home :)

Happy new year!

Busy summer.

It's been a busy summer but I have maintained my goals and enjoyed a vacation to see family. The girls are growing too fast and we have managed a trip to SC, a birthday party, a trip to Oregon, Josiah moving back here with us, and a move into a new house! Crazy what life throws at you and I think I have handled myself well with everything going on. I am kept up with working out and all of August I have been working on my abs. Looking forward to a few detox days and I am posting a picture updating my old one. :)

Still going strong!

Well i know its been awhile since my last entry, my life has been a little crazy! but I'm still going strong, working out every day and I've been able to run too!!! which is HUGE for me since I've NEVER been a runner! I started out Running .73 miles (its just around my block)
Day 1- 10:15
Day 2- 9:23
Day 3- 8:32
Day 4- 8:15
Day 5- 8:18
Day 6- 7:47
Day 7- 7:32

YAY! I am so proud of myself! My last run puts me at just under an 11min mile!!!! Ive also been going to the gym and enjoying myself! Today i started a routine, going to do the bike or elliptical and then work my lower body for one week, they switch to my upper body! so that way i can focus on one area and hopefully start seeing results! I have some pictures I'm going to share and holy cow are some of them INSANE! but i have found some photos of the older me and how i was before i even had kids!

On a non fitness side i started doing freezer meals, i spent $450 on over 90 meals! I'm very happy with the meals we have been eating them for over a week now, and so happy that i don't have to prepare dinner ever night. we have a whole freezer full of over 60 dinners 30 breakfasts and lunch stuff!

The kids are doing wonderful!!! Jennika is gaining a southern accent, and Ruth is almost 1!!!! holy cow has time flown!

But overall everything has been wonderful! Ive deactivated my FB for awhile, not that anyone really notices, but i think I've just become addicted and i need to focus more on my home and my family. so I'm hoping to go awhile without my Facebook even though i will not have much of a social life since everyone only likes to communicate thru FB. but i know the people that really want to talk to me have my number! So here are some pictures of me and my update on my body change! These last few weeks i haven't seem much LBS changing but i took a picture and I've seen the inches disappear! :) Don't judge me! :)

Left: Sometime in 07/early 08 Right: Now

L:April 08 R: May 2012

June 2012

L: Mid May 2012 R: June 2012

L: Jan 2012 R: June 2012

All my jean sizes! What I started at to what I am now! :)

Thanks for reading!!! My Mini Goal is only a few weeks away!

30lbs down!!! Heck yea!!

Well I have made another milestone! 30lbs!!!!!!!!! Omg. If you would have asked me 4 months ago if I would be 30lbs lighter id of told you heck no! But I am SO thrilled. I even told myself at 30lbs lost I will get to a gym. And I have found the perfect one! :) I started today and it was awesome! I'm going to add some swimming in and elliptical. I think swimming will help so so much with my sore muscles and burn some fat at the same time :) the girls love the child care there and I am strangely comfortable with it. So I am going to post another picture. My first picture and my picture today :) I have 47lbs to go. But would be happy to just lose 15% body fat.

Insanity....

Well i have completed day 3! yay me! It is easier than i expected i think because everyone was telling me that it was so extreme and such but i think doing Slim in Six helped me a lot! I am glad that he says to go at your own pace because i do and i know i will get better with time. :)  i was so sore today after last nights workout i could hardly move this morning. I am really enjoying working out in a routine again. March was a crappy month for working out and i slacked way too much. so now i am back at it and watching what i eat charting everything and working out for at least 20 mins a day. sometimes (like today) 70+ mins :) it is becoming routine again and just automatic which is really nice. Tonight i was so exhausted but i pushed myself to do the workout, John is super tired too and he even said no lets have today be a rest day and i said HELL no! sunday is a rest day and we need to keep doing what we are doing. So tonight we are taking a before picture and i can't wait to see HUGE results cause i know for a fact in like a week i will see something! i officially have 60 days left! the count down is on!

i honestly have to say i LOVE working out. I never thought i would and i wish i would have kept up with fitness in high school. i will deff be telling my girls to do their best and be fit 24/7 which should be easy since i plan to keep working out for the rest of my life and i will always involve my children and since jennika already likes working out with me i will just keep doing what i do! I expect me to do better next week in these workouts since i have already done them. and i can't wait for my next fit test to see how much better i have become. i really love this program cause he really gets involved with you and talks to you during the workouts and pushes you do to your best and thats what i like to hear. tomorrow i am going to finish up my slim in six and enjoy working out :)

Eeek it's been a month??

Well this month has been a slacker month. And I refuse to let another month go by. So I ordered insanity, John and I will be doing the 60 day challenge together. Which will help me a lot since I KNOW it's going to be a huge struggle for the first 2wks or even the whole 60 days! But I have been stuck at 25lbs down and I need to get back into a strong routine. So I have picked a few things I am going to do on a weekly basis and see how I do. Can get in great shape if I don't push myself to do more. :) so here is what I am hoping to accomplish every week.
(I am mainly writing this down so I can remember. Haha)

Sunday- rest day from insanity, 4-8 mile bike ride.
Monday- AM slim in six, afternoon run which will be C25K, 2-3 mile bike rode before dinner and insanity at night
Tuesday- AM slim in six, 3-4 mile walk, 2-3 mile bike ride, insanity.
Wednesday- AM slim in six, C25K, 2-3m bike, insanity
Thursday- AM slim in six, 3-4m walk, 2-3m bike ride, insanity
Friday- AM slim in six, C25K, 2-3m bike, insanity
Saturday- AM slim in six, 2-3m bike ride.

WOW writing that out looks insane!!!!! But I am going to do my best. The main thin is insanity and C25K. Plus 2 workouts a day I do with my hubs :) and I KNOW my results will be amazing! So that's all that matters. I gotta work hard to get the results I want and eating right plus an insane workout routine will sure get me to where I want to be :) plus a way healthier me! So I'm hoping to be blogging more to share my journey, and to keep myself motivated. I worked out a lot more when I blogged so I have to get back into it. Plus it's getting so nice out and I'm going to be doing things outside with my girls more :).

So here's to april! And to getting my body back! Oh and I will be posting photo updates. Prob of me and John. And possibly weekly.

Wish me luck!

24lbs down :)

Oh am I so happy to be home :)) I missed my husband oh so much!! I was very proud of myself that I kept up with my goals and I didn't gain weight, I lost 4lbs :)) so now I have reached my first goal!! Now on to my next, 18lbs to go. And tomorrow starts a hard core routine so I am excited to see my results!!! On another note the girls and I had so much fun on our trip, very exhausting but fun, we got to visit with lots of family, and go to Disneyland! Both girls enjoyed it and I got to get on some rides. In the two weeks, the girls changed so much! Jennika repeats everything, and has grown into this little girl, Ruth is all over the place, and blabbering non stop. It's crazy how time flies. And in such a short time they can grow so fast!!! But back to reality! And I need a life, so I am going to work on getting out more and hopefully meeting friends that can become life long friends, I am so tired of not having a social life let alone not having a life outside of my family. So let's hope I can work on that. But until then all focus is on reaching my goals and being the best wife n mom I can be!!!

Visiting family!

Wow have I had a packed week. The girls and I left NC for Oregon last Tuesday and spent 2 days in Washington. Got to see my bestie and my nieces n nephews! It was so awesome to see them all and I'm happy it worked out and their moms worked with me :) then came down to Albany and have been visiting with family. I have been keeping to my goal and have not had any fast food. Been keeping myself under my calorie goal and eating the right portions. I have not worked out every day but we have also haven't been in one spot long enough for me to relax and workout. Which is no excuse but I am excited to get to Cali with my mom so we can workout together! I have been doing a few workouts here and there just randomly when I'm bored. I know I will prob not be at the same weight I was when I left but I also haven't been able to weigh myself. However today I had to buy new pants since mine were getting too loose and I have dropped 2 jean sizes!!! I am 2 sizes away from my first goal and 4 away from my ultimate goal!!!! :) and when I get home I will be hitting the working out hard. I have a plan that I'll be doing the 30 day shred along with slim in 6 plus a run and I feel that will get me to a good rhythm and I will be able to keep with it :) I am still happy with myself and do glad I am out of my old pants!!! And all I want is to continue to lose and of these pants seem to be tight one day I will be working my butt off that day! I will not go back to my old pants!!! I refuse!!! I'm posting my progress pics and my pic in my new smaller pants :)))

All ready for the west coast.

Tomorrow morning the girls and I head to Oregon then driving up to fort Lewis, then to sequim, back to Lewis and the next day back down to Oregon. For 5 days then off to Cali! Oh man it's going to be a busy busy week then a somewhat relaxing week. I am excited to see my nieces and nephews, and the Justus family. Then to see the in laws and more family. But I have to say I am super excited to have some in n out and take the girls to Disney land!!!! Wishing my hubs was coming with me but he can't :( I am also super excite to see everyone (as of right now) nearly 20lbs lighter!!!!! John and I are on our second day of detox and from yesterday I have lost 4.5lbs!!! And John lost 2.5!!! I am becoming so happy with myself. I am proud. But I have a huge challenge in front of me. 2 weeks of not being home. And I have to make sure I continue to workout and eat right. I refuse to eat fast food. I will eat subway if I need to! But I prefer to eat better. So wish me luck!!! My plan is to get some groceries when I get out there so I'll be good :) but I'm stressing out. This is my first flight that I will be completely alone from start to finish. Both times. Since I'm renting a car. So I have to figure out how to manage 2 car seats, a pack n play, a suitcase and a double stroller! AHHHHH. I know I can handle it. It's just overwhelming thinking about it! Well now I'm off to clean finish up last min things and workout!

Lost.

I'm finding that I am getting back into the place where I don't want to be. Going from lots of great friends that enjoy talking to me as much as I enjoy talking to them to one or two people that I talk to maybe on a weekly basis. Starting to feel like I am just not good enough to continue being friends with or I am just easy to forget. I like to think that it's not true but sadly the more days past the more I realize I am not a person people enjoy being friends with for life and I feel I am the only one who keeps trying so I am done. I officially am tired of trying to involve myself and feeling like I bug people so I'm just going to keep to myself. Getting off Facebook and not dealing with trying to make everyone see that I'm still alive. But instead I'm just going to focus on my girls and my husband. Not going to put myself out there anymore and I'm not going to be sharing my business with anyone. If people want to know how I'm doing then they can call me. I'm tired of everything really. But onto a better note I am succeeding in my weigh loss journey more than I expected. Things are going great and I am becoming comfortable with myself. Can't wait to see my progress at the end of the month.

Is it a trend?

In the nearly 3 years John and i have been married, we have been through a lot, i have been there for friends that have gone through a lot, i have been there for family, i feel like i have been helpful in whenever someone needs me to. I'm wondering now why i even try. so i guess i need to just be a hermit and not be there for anyone that isn't there for me, and just be there for my family.

Last night we got a phone call from my mother in law letting us know that John's Aunt Jerry (whom played a huge roll in his life) had passed away. While i was talking to Jacque (my mom in law) she had asked me to tell John, and i couldn't, i couldn't tell him again that someone close to him had passed away. because every time someone has passed away, Aunt Jerry is the 3rd person close to him that has passed in less than 3 years) my heart breaks, and i really have no one to turn to, to talk to other than my husband and family, and they are feeling the same pain that i am feeling but multiplied! In Feb 09 John was in training at NTC in California, and i had to inform him that his grandfather had passed away, in Oct 10 John's brother Joe was KIA in Afghanistan and i had to tell him that his brother wasn't going to come home, which was by far the worst feeling in the world to have to tell your husband, and last night i just couldn't tell him, i am normally a very strong person when it comes to dealing with loss and i am normally one to be ok with telling the news. I am torn up for my family, and my husband. His grandpa i didn't know very well, met only a few times since John and I had only been dating a few months, his brother i had gotten to know and talked to him like he was my own brother and he loved Jennika, and Joe was by far the hardest person to lose in the family, its been over a year and we are all still feeling pain, and Getting the news of Aunt Jerry is another wonderful person this family is going to take awhile to accept.

I am praying that this is not a new thing with our family. seems like every year n a half or so we lose something that is near and dear to our hearts. And i am praying for Uncle Harlan and him losing the love of his life. Now i have to wait for when to book our tickets to oregon and pray that John is able to come...then worry about our dogs.

Posting my success.

I first thought that posting pictures of my success would just embarrass me and I'm too shy to show how I let myself get out of control. But then since seeing my body changing for the better I have decided that maybe a picture a month wouldn't be so bad :) after all I am the one that is changing me and I should be proud of what I am doing and not dwell on the past. After all I can't change the past but I am changing my future :) I have seen more results in my body changing than in my scale. Which is perfectly fine with me since changing my body is more important that what weight is on the scale. :) so at the end of this you will see a picture of my before and a picture of me today. If you can't not be judgmental and rude then keep your comments to yourself. And I'm proud of myself and I hope you can be proud of me too.

Onto family, jennika is seeming to be back on track with her potty issue, and I am so relieved. My friend Jessica gave me this wonderful idea of freezing go gurt, and giving it to her as a treat which worked wonderful this morning. And she has even been dry all day! :)) Ruth is crawling all over, and playing with all the toys. Jennika and Ruth are now playing together, and looking back at our play area to see Ruth all over the place, is awesome. What's even better is seeing her playing with Jennika. Jennika loves her sister, and is enjoying sharing her toys with Ruth. I am just going to enjoy life, and not worry so much about the small stuff. I know my husband will do his very best to take care of us and that's a wonderful feeling.

2 weeks down!

Well I am finished 2weeks of my workouts! :) I did the first set in slim and six and I'm doing much better in the treadmill intervals. :) I have lost 10lbs and 11.5 inches. I feel wonderful!!! I started the second set in slim in six today and it is going to be awesome! It is 20mins longer than the first set and it is way faster. But I am enjoying it! I changed my routine a little and decided slim in six and treadmill need to be in the morning and not at night since I am exhausted by days end. So now tonight I will jump on the treadmill for a half hour and be done. Plus I prefer doing a walk at night than both it gives me too much energy before bed. And now I can workout clean the house shower an head to bed! All by about 915ish. :) I have stayed on track with my healthy eating and even went out to dinner twice this weekend and still ordered something within my calorie range! I have been looking at my pictures that I took before I started working out and pictures I took now and WOW! I totally see a huge difference in just 2wks!!!! It's amazing and I am so happy! Like I have said before I'm not too worried about the numbers on the scale but more focused on eating right and working out. Which I have done so far!

On another note Ruth crawled for the first time last night. Only a little but hey it's a start! And she is all over this morning crawling a few inches then spinning and repeat lol. Jennika is talking way more and I love it! She has conversations with her dolls haha. John is at selection this week and I keep praying everything is going great for him, this is a make or break career thing for him and I'm always praying for the best. Civil affairs is something he wants so bad and it's something that interests him in the army and even though it will be hard on our family I will support him anyway I can so that he meets his goals. Which is what he has done for me!

This is the longest I have kept up with working out and knowing me a year ago I would have never done this. So it is a huge accomplishment for me to be working out 14 days in a row! And not having fast food, soda, or any easy boxed food is so amazing to me! Granted I would like some on some days but I fight my urges and tell myself I didn't lose 10lbs just to gain it back! I am looking forward to what next week holds for me in my weight loss. Hopefully another 3lbs at least. This last week I lost 5lbs! My first goal was 10lbs a month. And I have met that goal in 2wks. I know every month won't be like this but 10lbs will be my main goal :)

I hope you are sticking to your new year resolution. :)

Feeling lighter!

I am so enjoying this year so far! I feel wonderful! I have kept with my workout and healthy eating, I did have a reward day yesterday we had desert at coldstone but I ate healthy all day aside from my desert :) I woke up this morning feeling guilty since I was organizing my craft stuff all night and didn't workout. But today I am working in another workout and more of a weigh training workout which will be nice! I have never felt this good and I have never felt like just working out without dreading it. I have been enjoying it and not even thinking twice about working out :) I am so proud of myself, and am so looking forward to what is to come. I have one week down and five weeks to go, 3.5 lbs down :) so many more to go but that's not my real focus. My focus is eating healthy and exercising. :)

GO ME!

Loving The New Me!

Wow, I don't think I have ever been this energized or this excited about working out in my life! I feel like a whole new person and I just wish I could have done it sooner, but I am so happy I didn't wait any longer! I know have a nice routine going, and working out isn't a chore, I don't have to peel myself off the couch and force myself to work out! And I have been eating healthy and not worrying about what the scale says since I am only weighing myself once a week. And if I drop even one lb I will be so happy! I am more focused on just making sure I keep doing the workouts I enjoy! I am so glad I decided to do the slim in six and start out with it since it is somewhat of a beginners work out but still kicks my butt! Well it is by beach body so I know it's good :) after my 6wks I will start the 30 day shred, and after that I think turbo fire or P90X. But I will get to that point when I get there. I found out today my iFit has 25 workouts and I am on 4. I do the same one twice, so i won't have to search for the second one until later. :) anyways I am so very proud of myself, and I know that I will achieve my goals!!! :)

Are you sticking to your new years resolution?!?

Disconnecting

There is so much going on in my life, i am battling my own struggles mentally and physically, Jennika is have some issues not physical or mental but just issues that we have been battling since we got to NC, John has some things he needs to focus on or the outcome if he doesn't succeed will be horrible. So i am kind of feeling like i need to disconnect and focus on my life in full swing instead of having distractions. Plus my phone is only a distraction when it does go off which now a days is only my mom, johns mom, or john. So really that shouldn't be an issue much. I am decided that my phone will only be on if i am leaving my house, yet will be in my purse just in case i need it, i am going to go out and get a house phone tomorrow to set up the security in my house and if someone needs to reach me they can, if they want the number. i am deff having more struggles than any recently prob cause i kinda feel left in the dark, but thats really nothing new to me since it tends to happen a lot in my life. but life goes on and its time for me to just stop and focus on things that i need to do and get done. :)

Today started off to be a great day, girls had their check ups and both of them are very healthy and advanced. Dr told me that i am on top of things since Jennika is potty trained and the average now a days of kids to be potty trained is 3-3 1/2. then the girls got their shots, jennika did great she only whined while the lady was touching her and then she was fine and ruth cried until i picked her up which is what Jennika used to do haha. Then we came home relaxed had lunch and i got a text from my husband stating some not so great news. so now i am stressing out because if John doesn't pass this course he is going to on the 15th then we could be homeless and jobless and after a big move and then another move across country things would not be looking good. SO needless to say i will be stressed and worried about everything and thinking worse case for everything the whole month cause we won't find out until the 20th. and on top of that i will not be going to Cali to see my family which is a huge bummer for me since my grandpa just underwent heart surgery, and i was looking forward to introducing Ruth to friends and family. but that will have to wait which i guess is a good thing since saving money is the best idea right now. Then we found out that we won't even be getting the money we spent moving here until late jan since its so close to the end of the year and W-2s are needing to be processed and they won't even start it until those are all handed out which is the 23rd. :( so needless to say i am stressed to the max. and i think this is the only thing i vent to now a days since i don't really want to bother other people with my problems anymore cause i feel like I'm an annoyance at times. so my day went from awesome to horribly stressful all at the same time. on top of that i am still feeling like family issues will NEVER be resolved and things will never change which really pisses me off! but i am trying very very hard to not get bothered by the family issues that seem will never change.

to end my night i did a work out on the treadmill and now I'm going to head to bed, 9:15 and its calling my name. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and i will get the rest of the things done that i need to get done. So if you are trying to get ahold of me leave a voicemail or email me. phone will be shut of the majority of the day and if its turned on i will most likely not be answering it. i guess i am turning into a hermit.

Goodbye 2011

WOW this year has FLOWN by, so i was thinking of my year and what all happened and the ups and downs and how it is coming to an end and all the things that i experienced and the wonderful people i have met along the way. So i decided i would blog about all the ups and downs us Rodewald's experienced.

Jan 2011- we spent our last month stationed at Fort Lewis, i enjoyed every chance i got hanging out with Heather and Lainee, going to costco with them, and watching the girls play together cause they were growing up so fast! Jennika was moved into a toddler bed, and she suddenly  became a big girl over night!

Feb 2011- we found out we were having another baby girl! we left WA and started our journey to Fort Campbell KY, we spent a week with John's family in oregon, John went to Chicago to watch his brother graduate navy basic, we picked up my mom and traveled for 3 days to get to KY, got to see so many places i have never seen!

Mar 2011- we moved into our new house and unpacked and organized in 2 days! it was awesome to have my mom there to help and being pregnant it was a relief to have everything done! we went to Atlanta GA for the first time and took Jennika to the zoo aquarium, and to the world of Coke! it was awesome! and so much fun to say "oh I've been there!"

Apr 2011- We got settled into the house, met the neighbors who turned out to be the best neighbors we have ever had, enjoyed BBQs and beer pong in their garage! Mom went back to CA and we were getting back to our routine and starting to feel at home, we then went to SC at the end of Apr to see Josh, Michelle, and Sophee! got to see the beach which was AWESOME i so missed the salt water! and had a blast watching the girls play together!

May 2011- relaxing month didn't do much but enjoyed ourselves and Jennika was growing up way too fast!

June 2011- I met a wonderful family, The Davis' turned out Katelyn and I were only 2 weeks apart in pregnancy and Jack and Jennika are 3 months apart. and talking to her was so easy and watching Jack and Jennika play was like they knew each other their whole life! mom came back to be there for the birth of Ruth. and we did lots of prepping for Ruth's arrival!

July 2011- We welcomed into the world Ruth Marie Rodewald! and getting used to having 2 children under 2 was easier than i expected! Jennika was LOVING having a little sister and had to get used to not being the only child. which she transitioned very well!

Aug 2011- Mom went home and we tried to enjoy the hot weather....Jennika was continuing her Dance and Gymnastic classes and she was talking more and signing a whole lot more!

Sept 2011- Jennika got potty trained!!!!! took 3 days and we went from 4 accidents to none in 5 days! and boy did she LOVE wearing her big girl panties! i turned 23, and enjoyed a dinner with my awesome friends! plus took a shot of grey goose at my birthday dinner and got to almost pee my pants with my neighbor driving me home haha in my car! haha

Oct 2011- the girls and i went on our first plane ride together alone to oregon for Joe's vigil and to have our family meet Ruth. enjoyed super late nights with the family. came home and prepped for another plane trip to take my mom to New York for our first time and her 50th birthday! got to experience the first snow in Times Square! the girls were AWESOME! and again being able to see things that i never thought i would see in my life is amazing! closed the month with a great halloween with family and friends!

Nov 2011- after new york i came to prep for our move in dec only to find out that we would be moving in 12 days and i had to pack up and leave some of the greatest friends i have ever met. it was a sad month and i still miss living next to my neighbors and going to Katelyn's to let the kids play! but we drove out to Fort Bragg NC and thank god we found a home within an hr of being here and got moved in in a day n a half. again if my mom wasn't here to help me i wouldn't have been able to do it at all!

Dec 2011- John turned 26, Jennika turned 2. i got the house mostly unpacked and John helped when he got home from Airborne school, we went to FT Campbell for Jennika's birthday and were thankful to stay at the Davis home while we were there. and i got to spend some time with my friends again! came home and celebrated christmas with Josiah and ended the month meeting new friends!

This year has been a great year over all. and looking back i am proud of myself for getting out and meeting new people and doing good deeds. today i offered my home up to a family i barely knew to have a birthday party for their daughter. a year ago i would have NEVER done that. and i am so glad i did because i had a great day of conversation and watching Jennika make new friends, and wow did she have a blast. I have to say that this year i have changed for the better, i now open myself up more and it may bite me in the butt later on but i won't regret it. I have met some awesome people and if i am going to be moving around so much i need to learn to get myself out of my comfort zone (which is what i did tonight) and meet people that may of may not turn out to be wonderful friends but if i don't take the chance i will never know. its just like how i met Katelyn, she posted on a campbell page to see pictures of 3bdrm homes in our neighborhood. and turns out i know for a fact that her and her family will always be a part of my life. I also could have stayed like a hermit in my house and not met my neighbors and became so close to them, they also will be a big part of my life forever!

So heres to a new year and new experiences and getting myself out of my comfort zone! because if i never would have gone out and did things i would have never met the few people that changed my life for the better!

Happy New Year!

Ashley!