Wow. Is really all I can say....

Today has been an up and down kind of day, got to talk with the bestie and I hope her day turned out better than mine! Then went and got the girls' Christmas outfits finalized, and went to get my car registered however my husband signed the title in the wrong place and it would have been over $700 to get it changed into my name!!! Ridiculous!! Needless to say I left the DMV crying cause I was so upset at everything! Then I come home, well a few months ago I helped register my moms car online thru WA DMV well they had always had it set up that you need a WA DL. Well now they have it to where if you are military you no longer need a WA license. :))) so thankfully I was able to order my tabs and I just hope they send them here.

So then I got the girls all dressed up and took pictures by the tree and relaxed with my mom for the rest of the night. Which is so nice because I am exhausted!! I then got to see my wonderful daughters red headed attitude come out. Wow! She has been showing her attitude a lot this last week and I know it's mainly all because all the change in her life! So I can't blame her but when I try to out her to bed at 9pm and its 11:26pm and she just fell asleep with getting out of bed 30 times and me having to calm her down by laying in bed cause she is giving herself a bloody nose, she is finally asleep! Thankfully Ruth is a deep sleeper or she would have been up all this time too! My mom leaves tomorrow and tomorrow will be the only day I can drive until I get my tabs. :/ I have a very very busy day tomorrow.

Hope you enjoy your day tomorrow! (more than I will :/)

Long week!

Well I hope you had a wonderful thanksgiving, the girls' and my mom were sick, so we just had a small turkey with some mashed potatos and yams, jennika and my mom made my great grandma's yams and oh do I miss them all year! It has been a long week and I have been going non stop. But my house is mostly unpacked just have some organizing to do, the girls rooms are done, their play room is down, even got them a new cute cardboard house! Kitchen is done, and living room is done, the main problem room is the sun room which is our workout/office/johns man cave, we have so much that goes into this room that it will take me a bit. Plus I have to organize all my craft stuff and get rid of what I don't want.

I am loving our new home, but I am missing my friends so much! I am excited to go visit everyone in a week or so. My good friend Clifton is coming to visit, haven't seen him since I left Washington. It's nice to have friends come see me. This will be one of the few friends of mine that has ever came to see me. I have always gone to see everyone and to be honest it gets old. I enjoy having friends visit. :) I love being in the comfort of my own home.

Jennika is all confused with this move, she has regressed with potty training which is normal and we are finally getting it back to normal. I have a busy week ahead of me. I have to get everything unpacked and organized before wed since my mom leaves and she is a huge help with the girls and keeping them occupied. But I'm off to bed its late and I'm exhausted!

Ashley

It All Became Real :/

Well Sunday we left fort campbell :(( I had to say good bye to my best friend. And her wonderful family. I hate that. I know I will see her a lot but it's just not enough. My worst thing is that she's not just a few blocks away if I need her. Jennika was looking at a picture in my phone of her and jack and I wanted to break down n cry cause she pointed at it and said "my jack" and then turned around and started yelling for jack, then screamed "where's my jack?" broke my heart. :( I missed them as soon as they pulled away. :(

We left Clarksville around 4 and headed east. We drove til about 1am (12am KY time) and stopped to rest in a hotels. Ruth and jennika did awesome on the trip, however Ruth decided it was a good day to start projectile vomiting again. so the 4th time she soaked her whole car seat and self :( I had to pull over immediately and nearly caused an accident, but she started choking and thank god she was in the front seat or I could have not gotten to her quick enough. We started driving again at 830am and made it to Fort Bragg/Fayetteville around 1. I was calling on houses as soon as we hit 100mi left, I randomly looked on their off post housing website and found a house that would fit our needs, so I called the owner and set up an apt to see it. This house was just listed on their website on Saturday. We got into the area and this neighborhood seemed very quiet and the house looks great from the outside. So the owner got her and showed us the house, we walked in and you have a great room (living and den) then to your right you have your dining room which is open to the living room, walk into the dining and you have your kitchen take a lady and your back to your den, the master bedroom is off the den, and there is also a sun room/bonus room off the den, you go down your hall off the living room and you have a room to your left a bathroom in front of you and a room to your right. We then went into the back yard thru the sun room and wow was I in aw. It is sectioned off by fences into 3 sections. Your main section has your walkway, a little pond, 2 fire pits, and a hot tub (:D) a section to the right is a huge play area, it has a house, sandbox, swing set, a slide, and just a bunch of fun stuff kids enjoy. I wanted this house. So I told then I'd like to rent it what do you need from me. They gave me their real estate guys number and I called instantly. We were talking for a bit outside waiting for him to call back and I found out the owners and our landlord are civil affairs. How awesome is that. What are the odds right? So we went to eat and check out the area. We are like 5. Mins from the mall and shopping areas. (awesome right?!?) got a call an hr later and started signing our contract at 5. Started moving our things in around 6 and got half the truck unloaded by 11. I just wanted to get to our beds! Ruth does not sleep well when she isn't in her crib she loves it. So here I am it's 8:30 on Tuesday and I have realized I am not going to be able to have my neighbor over for coffee, and chit chat for awhile, and I am not going to be able to have the Davis' over for dinner and let Jack and Jennika test out the new play ground area. :,( nor and I going to see Jonah and Ruth lay on the floor smiling while Jonah swings at Ruth and Ruth sucks on Jonah's arm. Haha. So needless to say I am super sad today. And probably will be for awhile. I do however get to look forward to going out there for a week and seeing everyone again and enjoying Jennika's party!

Army life sure is great when you think about the stability of a pay check when others are fighting trying to find a job to keep a roof over their heads or food in they children's mouth. It's also great that you get to see places you prob wouldn't see. I never thought 5yrs ago I would be living so far away from where I grew up. It's also great when you meet new people and get to explore different views of life. But the down falls are being away from your husband, John isn't deployed now but I won't see him til Jennikas birthday. But I am grateful he is in the states and I can talk to him anytime I want. But another huge downfall is meeting these awesome people that you never expected when you first met them that they would be life long friends and friends that you would always go to visit and talk to on a regular basis. And leaving them hurts just as bad as leaving your family behind when you move to another post. It was hard for me to move from Washington cause I had my nieces and nephews and my great friends I made there (one of which I had known for years and we ended up in the same place) moving sucks cause you have to start your life over and you have no clue where to even begin. I am sure I will get used to moving but it will never hurt any less to leave friends behind. :(

Well I'm off. Enough crying for one day. Time to get an early start and unpack what we have got outta the truck. Here are some pictures of our travels.

Wish 12 days ago didn't happen :(

I am laying here on my neighbors couch because my house is packed in a u haul. It has been a long last 12 days and it all ended too soon! I am so thankful for all the wonderful friends I made here and thankful that katelyn and Erica have been so helpful. I had to say bye to my neighbor Friday morning, that was rough. The only thing that kept me from balling is that I'll be back in a few weeks to visit for a while. But knowing that I'm moving away from who is the best neighbor and friend I could ask for sucks! What sucks even more is she's pregnant and due in Feb and I won't be her neighbor to stand outside waiting for them to bring home baby Dylan like tim and Baylee were for me when I brought home Ruth. I have became so close to them and I sure am going to miss our morning coffee and Erica telling me I need to stop buying cupcake things for the girls haha. I'm sure I will be here at campbell a lot since I am not that far away and will miss everyone so much.

Katelyn and her wonderful family came over to help us load the truck and I'm shocked I wasn't crying all day. Jennika and Jack were on the truck axle just sitting and I was inside but Katelyn took a picture for me and I just about cried. Knowing we are leaving all of Jennika's friends and she has met so many here, just sucks. I know she will meet more friends but it won't be the same. Katelyn and her family have been a huge part of our life here and i don't think I will want to make friends at Bragg. I hate leaving people I care about and I hate knowing that Jennika really has no clue what is going on and probably thinks its just another day and she will see jack at the playground or at his house tomorrow or the next day. Or when we Skype jack why she isn't in the same room but he's on the computer. I again am so thankful we aren't going too far away since if we were I would be crying even more. When we moved from Lewis I knew we would be visiting since we are from the west coast and have family there. If we were going back to Lewis or some where more than 12hrs away I would be devastated. I haven't even left yet and I am crying. I am going to get the house finished and the truck finished this morning so I can enjoy the rest of the day with my friends. We leave tonight or earlier I still have not decided. It is raining which means we should prob leave during the day so we don't go thru the hills n such at night but I don't want to go!!!!!!!

Getting to the End.... :(

WOW, it has been a busy few days, in the last 4 days i have cried, been super upset, awesomely happy, and SUPER stressed out! This move is all coming so fast that i am just over loaded with emotions. We finished packing on monday, and i had a few last min things after the house was cleaned, but it was great cause i packed the first two days, and John packed the last two days. I packed away the rest of Jennika's toys and my dogs are freaking out, warren is acting out i think he is just nervous. Thor is being good but a little worried when i leave the house. Jennika is doing very well considering everything she normally plays with is gone and she doesn't have a million books and babies out. Ruth has been sleeping in her crib for a week now and she sleeps so much better! She hasn't slept thru the night since we went to OR last month and the night i put her in her crib she was out like a light and slept 10hrs! it was so great to have sleep again. I discovered Jennika is getting her 2 year molars, so she is in pain during the day but thankfully isn't waking at night like she normally does when she teethes, Ruth's front bottom teeth are at the surface I'm wondering when those are going to come in since Jennika's sat there for 6 months. I have not been running or working out due to the fact that Jennika got sick and i don't wanna take her out in the cold and i am so exhausted cause I'm so stressed out. BUT I found a track at fort bragg that was talking to another wife about and i plan on going there every other day to run. my mom is going to try it with me as well. I am also not going to buy crap snack foods, i will only have fruits and veggies and other healthy snacks in my home, my husband may not like this considering he is a chips and sandwich kinda guy BUT he can go eat somewhere else. I want so bad to be able to be healthy and show my children good eating habits and healthy exercise habits, My husband and I are getting each other bikes this christmas, and seats to go in the front for the girls. I plan to ride my bike a lot and when the hubs is free i plan to go on at least one weekly bike ride together. I may even get one of those trailer things that go in the back so when i want to ride alone i will be able to take both girls. I finally have the drive to want to do these things and workout and i am bummed i am not running this week but i WILL be starting again once i get all moved in. I will also hopefully have enough room in a home to do my Jillian workouts i know she will kick my butt! and after i am finished with the 30 day shred i will do another much stronger workout I'm thinking the PX90 i have heard great things! I hope everyone is enjoying their week i am dreading the end of this week. :(

Ashley

Happy to be Running Again!

I am so glad I ran today! It really helped clear my head and get things in order. I enjoy running however my body doesn't. :/ but I am going to stick with it. I have no excuse since I have a double jogger and I don't have any broken body parts. My hubs ran with me today so that was nice! We were able to take our boxer mastiff out to and I know he enjoyed that! Tomorrow I plan on running again even though you are not suppose to run everyday but I would like to only run mon wed fri. And have weekends to myself and doing my chores. I also will be starting once I get all moved, Jillian michaels 30 day shred. If I can start running 3 times a week for 30mins and doing Jillian I am bound to get into shape and healthy. I know I will bitch about it a lot but I think I bitch more about being fat than being sore. I have lots of things I want to do and I will be doing them. I was to be thin and in shape when we start trying for our next child and that starts in march. I have a good 4 months to get into a workout routine and stick with it. I figure if I can do that I will be able to work out during my pregnancy and I won't just be sitting on the couch. I also figured out I need to not do so much when I am just starting out. So I found a new workout thing and I will be doing that it is a 60 day program and it works you up to doing so many things per day just like the c25k and I think that's good for me :) I know I have a bad back and I know my weight puts a toll on my body when working out. So I am going to start out walking not running when it comes to workouts. I am not going to force myself to do things that I know will injure me and cause me not to do work outs at all. I have found out that I enjoy working out and running if I don't push myself too hard. I think that the c25k program is perfect simply be aide it works you up to running. Not just going out and going on a 30min run.
And that is what working out and running should be about. Not jumping into things but gradually working yourself up to doing hardcore workouts. :) glad I enjoy working out now because before I would dread it! And I can't wait to be at the point in the c25k that I can just run at a stable pace and not have to change speeds all the time cause then I will be able to run on my treadmill! :)

When it comes to packing, I am almost done! I just need prob 3/4 more huge tubs to put everything else in and I'll be done! I have to make a trip down to a Walmart tomorrow to grab a few more. My wonderful bestie helped me pack up 95% of my down stairs and I am so grateful for her! I packed the rest of my bedroom tonight and bathroom (what we don't need for the week) tomorrow we have a birthday party to go to and then we are going to finish packing and getting everything into the garage that we don't need. Almost done then I get to enjoy my last week here and spend time with my awesome friends :)

Hope you had a great day!

Ashley!

Almost packed.

I have sadly not worked out in 3 days. :( I feel exhausted and really need to get back into the groove of things. I was suppose to go on a run with my husband this morning but got into packing and clearing out the garage. But tomorrow morning I am going on a run! I need to get back into my routine and stop slacking. I saw a glance at myself in the mirror and I hate the way I look. I really need to buckle down and only drink and eat healthy. This move is going to help me since it's kinda like starting over. I will no longer be buying snack food that isn't a fruit veggie or grain. John is going to come home to a new person and hopefully pounds lighter. I will be running or walking every morning from now on! I am buckling down and stopping my bad habits. No more eating out and if I do I will only be eating salads and fruit. I will be writing down all my meals and snacks and tracking my calories. If you see me on a daily basis and I do not have a bottle of water please tell me to get one lol. That is my biggest problem is I don't drink enough water nor do I eat enough healthy foods. I will also be killing myself with Jillian micheals. She is mean and I don't like her but I really need to get into shape and a place where I am comfortable with myself. In other words I need this fat crap off of me. And for me it's an every day struggle to stay in top of it. And no matter how much I ask my husband to keep on top of me he doesn't. When. I get to Bragg I may be getting a personal trainer to come and tell me what to do and force me to do it. I just really want to be happy with myself.

Well that's all for tonight. Hope everyone had a wonderful veterans day.

Ashley.